Getting used to it a.k.a taking things/people for granted?

There's a lot of thoughts running around in my mind now.
I need some space to pen/type it down and sort out my thoughts.
So, here am i, and i'm gonna begin..

As i am typing this, i am confused.
My mind is in a whirl.
Because i feel that i am contradicting myself.
I used to say i wont take things/people for granted.
But, i think i am doing it now.
And i don't even realise it (until i'm being told).
I feel like i am getting used to people being nice to me, and i think i'm slowly starting to neglect their feelings.
This is bad.
REAL BAD.

I never thought this would happen.
I know i've promised that i would not let this happen.
Yet, it did.
Honestly, i wasn't aware of it.
Because if i did, i wouldn't have let it happen.
:'(

And so, this habit let to another situation,
and another,
and another,
and another.
I didn't even know it was so accumulative,
and it had all already happened without me knowing about it.
I've hurt someone so much yet i don't even know.
How stupid.
How insensitive.
HOW CRUEL.

I lied, thinking that you wouldn't find out,
because i thought it was just a little lie.
But a little lie, is a big lie to you.
Because no matter what, lies are still lies.
I broke a promise.
A promise, which i made, because you cared for me.
Yet i neglected it, which to you, it means that i've neglected your care for me.

I was in the wrong.
I got so used to you.
Please give me a chance, to learn, to love you like i used to.

I still love you, as much as i did.
I just merely loved you in another way.

-feL*